Im loosing you, not only are you my boyfriend, but you’re also my bestfriend, all of that, is going to be over soon and i’m so scared. i’ve given up my old life for you, i’ve changed my ways for you. you’ve taught me things in life i could never thank you enough for, we may have fought all the time, but at the end of it all, we would always laugh and get through it, because our foundation of a relationshp/friendship was so strong. i don’t know why things have gotten the way they are, it hurts, it really does. i know i need to do this, but i know it’s going to just shred my heart to pieces, everyone always told me that you were never good enough for me, and that you controlled my life, but what they couldn’t see is that you’re such an outstanding person. i know you have difficulties with your family and all of that, and i really am sorry, and i do feel for you. but i can’t keep on being the person you take your anger out on, just because you knew i would never leave, i thought i would never leave. it just got to the point to where yesterday was everyday, nothing changed. you kept saying things would change, but the thing is„they never did. i hope everything gets better with you and your parents, i really do. i know the pain that can cause a person, i hope you contiune to be the Dominick i know and love. i will always know you better than anyone else could possibly ever grasp their hands around, because i was the one who would listen to you, i was the one who never judged you, i was the one who wiped your tears away when you cried, i was the one who supported you, i was the one who finally let her guard down and then didn’t get it in return. i’m sorry you got so jealous, i never really understood why because i never hung out with a single guy the whole time we were together, but you still assumed i would do stupid stuff. i cried over you more than you know, i bragged about you more than you will ever know. just because we aren’t together anymore, doesn’t change how i’ll talk to you, i’m not going to be one of those girls who talks crap about their now ex boyfriend, and i hope you have enough respect for me to do the same. i will not share any secrets you told me, i will not tell anyone our sexual times because it’s none of their buisness, i will talk about you in a respectful manner, and i can pinky promise that to you Dominick, i’m going to miss you more than i could ever imagine, i remember when i always acted like such a child in front of you because i knew you would never judge me or look at me differently, i remember all the little moments we had, like going to winco, albertsons, eating kazoozles, buying you non stop nutella, going to taco bell and demanding to drive your car, taking your car from you, driving around town to get me cold stone, taking me out to dinner for my birthday with my brother, going to your brother’s wrestling tournament, going to your little sister’s cheer thing, going to your brother’s practices, watching a scary movie with you..hahahah, going to the hockey game, having our first kiss at the basketball game, wrestling in my room, having contests, fighting because of how stubborn we both are, and just so so much more. i never thought it would end like this, but it has to be done, you’re acting like it’s only going to affect you and that i’m breaking all of these pinky promises, but do you not realize how much pain you put me and my heart through? you promised you’d never hurt my heart, well..you did. i’m so sorry it’s ending the way it is, but you need to live your life, and i need to live my life. this isn’t what i want, but it’s what needs to be done. there will always be a special place for you in my heart Dominick Jeremy, you’ve impacted my life more than you can understand, you never quite realized a lot of things about me that i did for you, and oh how i wish you would of. my heart feels like it’s breaking, but i know deep down, i’m doing the right thing. i’ve taking you away from your family, your friends, soccer, girls, etc. i hope your parents learn that you’re not a terrible kid and that you really do have the biggest heart in the whole entire world, picturing my life without you literally brings me to tears, but it’s not a picture anymore, it’s real life. and our relationship, is now just memories. i wish the best for you, and your family, i really hope you become the best i know you can be. just don’t give up darling, you’ve got a bright future ahead of yourself, i can see it. now it’s time for you to see it too. i wish you luck and i will always love you…please just don’t give up, i’m doing this so we can both be fully happy. i want you to enjoy life and to have fun, be happy, and live life how you used to. Nobody can ever replace you and i hope you know that, my brother is going to miss you, along with my parents, you made an impact on their lives too, you’ll always be my Dominick Jeremy Carlyle, don’t ever forget that.
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